I think today I am finally feeling like myself again. I have been struggling the last few days, just feeling “blue” and somewhat overwhelmed. I felt good most of the day, but I would have periods where I just felt blah and felt like I could cry for no reason. Yesterday I started to get frustrated that it was still going on. I felt like I shouldn’t still be so tired, and that the emotions should have calmed down by now. But, today was a much better day.

Scott went out of town yesterday–he left around 2:00pm. I was nervous about how I would handle it, but I have done great! My mom came over yesterday in the afternoon and had dinner with me. She took Emma to her house for one last sleepover, before she left for North Carolina. I did fine by myself. I let Ian watch some TV, and then put him to bed. I got Nora all snuggled up and we got into bed and I got to watch some of my shows. I actually enjoyed the time by myself Nora did great, she went to sleep in her car seat at about 8:30pm and slept until about 12:30am. It was really nice and gave me a few hours of sleep without her next to me. I ordered an Amby bed, and I can’t wait to get it to try it out. I hope it helps her sleep better!

Today was a busy day. I was supposed to have my 2 week postpartum exam, so my mom and I went to SLC with the kids. When I got to the Birth Center Becky had a birth, so I had to reschedule for tomorrow. We went to Target and I got to return all the baby boy stuff I didn’t need, and then I went to Old Navy and returned all the things I had gotten online. I also got a few new things for me to wear Then I took mom to the airport, and she went to North Carolina. I am going to miss mom, she was a huge help to me this time. It was just so comforting emotionally to have her around, and she spent a lot of time here with me! It was a fun day–we did great with all 3 kids. It felt like “old times” out shopping with my mom. It made me feel normal, and it made me see that having 3 kids isn’t that much harder than 2. Nora was great!

I am just happy to be finally feeling better. I hope that it lasts, and that the baby blues are gone. I am looking forward to Scott getting home tonight, but I am happy that I did just fine while he was gone.