Ugh. I am totally sick of the snow. I know that I just spent 3 weeks in Maui, so I don’t have much room to complain, but I can’t help it It feels like it has snowed constantly since we got back. We have hardly seen the sun at all this winter.

I am really anal about our driveway and keeping it clear. I am usually the one in charge of snow blowing. This year I hired a snowplow to keep our driveway clear while we were in Maui. They did a terrible job. A few times I talked to friends back home who commented that it didn’t look like anyone was plowing. Now that I am home I can see why. They come at the most random times. They plowed yesterday morning before the storm started–we had about 1/8 inch of snow. Then we got about a foot of snow in our driveway and they never came again all day. If it wasn’t for our neighbor snow blowing for me, I couldn’t have gotten out of my driveway this morning.

Which brings me to my next complaint–our snowblower. When I got back from Maui one of the first things I did was to get our snowblower going and try to clear the driveway. It seriously looked like the snowplow hadn’t been there all winter. I started it up and got about 2 rows done and it broke. Some part that made the wheels turn broke. I was so bummed. I knew that it would be weeks before I got it back, and the weather report was calling for lots more snow. I could just picture the snow piling up on our driveway.

I finally got the snowblower back a couple of days ago. I couldn’t wait to start it up and get the driveway cleaned up. I used it one day, just to widen the driveway where the plow never plows. I was thrilled to have it back.

Yesterday we got another storm. I fired up the snowblower and tried to snowblow the driveway before Scott left for the airport. I got 2 rows done and IT BROKE AGAIN!! This time a spring broke that engages the auger. I can see the spring right on the outside of the snow blower. It seems like an easy fix. I called the repair shop, and they were supposed to come twice to look at it, and they still haven’t made it. Who knows when they will show up, or how long it will take to get the part. And, of course it is snowing again!

The last week or so has been really hard. I have not been feeling myself emotionally at all. I am extremely tired and grumpy all the time. I don’t remember feeling this way with any of my last pregnancies. It is really starting to bother me. I have been fighting with Scott constantly, although I don’t think it is just me. I know that I am more sensitive than normal, but I think he is extra defensive and quick to snap at me too. I am really feeling pregnant, and not in a good way. Maybe I needed this to bring closure to the whole pregnancy thing for me. I am feeling really glad that I will not be doing this again

I am concerned lately about how I am going to take care of 3 kids!! Scott is gone most of the weeks and I will be parenting 3 kids mostly by myself. I have been so tired lately that just 2 are exhausting, what am I going to do with 3??? I REALLY wanted this baby, and I still really want it, I am just having a bit of a hard time and feeling overwhelmed with the anticipation of taking care of 3. I have been thinking about maybe finding out the gender to help me bond a little more, but maybe just seeing the baby at the ultrasound will help me bond a bit more.

I just hope this passes soon. I feel like crying a lot of the time, and I hate being grumpy with Scott!