SubscribeThe last week or so has been really hard. I have not been feeling myself emotionally at all. I am extremely tired and grumpy all the time. I don’t remember feeling this way with any of my last pregnancies. It is really starting to bother me. I have been fighting with Scott constantly, although I don’t think it is just me. I know that I am more sensitive than normal, but I think he is extra defensive and quick to snap at me too. I am really feeling pregnant, and not in a good way. Maybe I needed this to bring closure to the whole pregnancy thing for me. I am feeling really glad that I will not be doing this again 
I am concerned lately about how I am going to take care of 3 kids!! Scott is gone most of the weeks and I will be parenting 3 kids mostly by myself. I have been so tired lately that just 2 are exhausting, what am I going to do with 3??? I REALLY wanted this baby, and I still really want it, I am just having a bit of a hard time and feeling overwhelmed with the anticipation of taking care of 3. I have been thinking about maybe finding out the gender to help me bond a little more, but maybe just seeing the baby at the ultrasound will help me bond a bit more.
I just hope this passes soon. I feel like crying a lot of the time, and I hate being grumpy with Scott!