Four years ago today I became a mommy for the first time. I can’t believe that Emma is 4 today. I spent a lot of today reminiscing about her birth, and thinking about what it felt like those first few days with a new baby. I can still clearly picture what she looked like the first time I saw her. I can vividly remember her pink color, and her swollen upper lip. I remember looking down at her on my chest and feeling amazed that she had finally arrived, and that I did it without drugs!

The Olympics are on right now, and that makes me think of Emma’s birth too. Scott and I talked about how 4 years ago we were at the luge timing my contractions, and everyone thought I was nuts. Then I remember watching so much Olympics on TV as I sat on the couch at home nursing Emma. I was emotional about them ending, because I was worried about what I would watch. My hormones were so crazy then. I was so emotional about everything.

She is getting so big, although I know that one day I will look back and think that she is little now too She is such a joy. She is so into her dress up dresses right now. Tonight she put on one of her new dresses. It has gloves and a matching purse. She came over and asked me to help her put on the gloves. She looked so adorable in elbow length gloves and her pink dress. She also loves doing puzzles. I can’t believe how good at them she is. She puts them all together in no time, and she loves doing them over and over. She is so cute, and so intense. She has such a strong will, and is not afraid to express it. Sometimes she gets herself so worked up, and she just can’t stop. Today we went to see the Curious George movie. She wanted to take her blanket, and I wouldn’t let her. She was so upset, she worked herself into a frenzy and screamed most of the way down the canyon. She finally exhausted herself, and calmed down.

Tomorrow is Valentine’s day, and Emma’s school party. She is excited to bring cupcakes to her class. She is crazy about school too. She just loves it, I hope that she continues to like it as she gets older.

Emma, my big 4 year old, I love you with all my heart. You bring so much joy to my life. You are so beautiful, and you have such an amazing personality. I am so happy that you made me a mommy 4 years ago!