Things are going pretty well. My hormones have been a bit crazy, and I have been feeling the “baby blues” again this time. I think that for me, having girls makes them worse. I had a really hard day on Wednesday, when Nora was a week old. I don’t have any specific reasons, I just get this sad feeling. I feel really needy, and I don’t want to be alone. I stayed home most of the day Wednesday, and I think that made it worse. About 5:00pm I just broke down and started crying. Then Scott and I packed up all the kids and went out for a walk. It was a nice sunny day, and being out in the bright sun made me feel better. I was much better after the walk, and the crying. Ugh. I really hate the hormones and I don’t know why that has to happen. I read some things about the baby blues, and it says they ususally start at day 3-4, peak at day 7, and then disappear by day 10-14. I hope that is the case for me! It seems like it was with Emma, and I really don’t think I even had it for more than a day with Ian.

Nora is doing well, but she is throwing up a lot. She is doing pretty much what Ian did,where she throws up a huge amount, about once a day. I am going to take her to get weighed tomorrow. I hope she has continued to gain weight, because that will help me worry less about the vomiting. I just worry that she is throwing up her whole feeding, and that she isn’t getting enough. She seems to be a really good nurser, though. She wants to nurse often, but I know that is normal. I took her to the pediatric dentist, who thought we should wait on clipping her frenulum. He said it wouldn’t be any worse to do it at 1 month, and it might be better for Nora. So I will wait and see. If she gains weight well, I won’t worry about it. If she is having problems, we will go back and have it done at 1 month. I felt good about the decision.

I have been working on getting Nora to sleep in her bassinet. It hasn’t been going too well I have gotten her to nap in her bassinet a few times, but she has to be really asleep before I can put her in there. All night she sleeps next to me, nursing on one side and then the other. It is going pretty well, and I am getting a fair amount of sleep. But, I really want her to sleep on her own. I just don’t sleep well with a baby next to me, and I am worried about the safety of it all. I can’t sleep without pillows, and our big down comforter worries me too. I have been looking at an Amby bed, and I am thinking about ordering one. I figure, if it works, it is worth more than the money I will pay!

Yesterday was a really busy day, and I was exhausted but in a good way. I went to SLC with Mom and the 3 kids. I had to take mom to get her Jeep, and to go to David’s office. We also went to Cottonwood Mall for a while. I did great with all 3 kids, and it really helped me to feel more confident that I can still get out, and that I can manage all 3! I carried Nora in the sling, and I pushed Emma and Ian in the double stroller. It worked out really well.

Each day is getting a bit easier, and every day my hormones seem to be getting better. My mom has been a huge emotional help to me! She has been coming over every day and just spending time with me. I told her today how much it has meant to me. She said she feels bad like she isn’t helping, but I told her that just being with me helps sooo much! I really appreciate that she didn’t go to Forest Creek with Dad, and that she stayed home to be with me. I really love her and I am so lucky to have the relationship with her that I do!